To My Child

Hi, It is a week to the end of July 2008. Tomorrow will exactly be 5 years that I came to Canada. Five years ! In this five years , I have seen my family just once in december 2004, when I went back home to get married to your mom and do the paperwork for bringing her to Canada. I stayed there almost 3 three weeks. Since then I have not seen them. It is about two weeks that I have told my mom about you and she got very excited .you are her first grand child! Your mom's belly is growing and we can feel your heart beats. I am very excited too. But sometimes I feel guilty. I know how cruel this world is and I have no idea where we are coming from and where we will go after this world. I have absolutely no clue for these questions and yet I wanted to have you !
But my dear child, I will try my best to make you happy and help you to become a very successful person in your life.
I was telling you about my family which is indeed your family too. These days I am missing them more than ever. One of my brothers is going through very tough days. He just turned to 23 ,yet he has experienced lots of thing ,not necesserly good things. My heart is out for him. when he was born I was 11. I was babysitting him and my other brothers and my sister most of the time. Now I am so far away and I can't take it anymore. I want to go back home and help them through these tough days. But I am not sure if I go back how my brother would feel . He might not want to see me in this situation.
I have to go now but later on I will write you more.
Love
Daddy